Alicia,
I don't know what else to say as our sisters have said it very well. Read your Bible, study, pray and worship with the saints in a true church of Christ according to God's Word in your area.

Here's a thought that might be of encouragement to you. Our physical body stays alive through the blood that runs through our body. Without our blood we die physically.

Christ died and shed His blood on the Cross and was buried and rose again and is alive today. When we were baptized we connected with the blood of Christ that was shed on that cross and became a Christian...a follower of Christ. To remain connected to that precious Life Blood we must continue to be faithful and do those things that Christ commands us to do. For example, To encourage and admonish one another and to fellowship with one another, do good to others and to read, study, pray, sing, partake of the Lord's Supper and give as we are prospered on the first day of the week as Christ commanded. So when we do these things this is the way that we are staying connected with the Body of Christ and getting that Spiritual Life Blood that we need to stay spiritually alive.

Here's a scripture of encouragement to read, I John 1:5-10.

Alicia, we love you and God loves you too!

Hugs and Prayers (((Alicia))),
Kathy

There is nothing that can separate us from the love of God except ourselves. Romans 8:35-39.

Enduring the tribulations of this world brings patience to our lives, and we are comforted by His Word according to His own sufferings and trials. Some passages that will help maybe:
Romans 5: 1-6; Romans 12 and focus on verse 12; and 2 Cor 1:1-5.